Drowning In Sweat And Blood...

Have u ever felt so "sien" or in english annoyed bcos u feel like everyone's pushing u around...? tats exactly how i feel rite now...im so freaking annoyed with all these ppl who shall not be named asking me to do things last minute jz bcos i wont decline them...it's like super last minute "Eunice can u do this?", "Eunice, get this.", "Eunice, you're doing that"....etc. come on la...it's not tat im being unwilling or im complaining...its jz tat im a human too...i haf times when i need a break...and when other ppl asked me to do other stuff...when im doin it..they show me those kinda faces like im betraying them or im doin sumtin wrong like tat...sumtimes i jz wish i cant do all this things...so tat i dont haf to alwez look at ppl's faces and do watever they tell me to do...u know wat...? im gonna say wat nad alwez say...Screw you.

dont get me wrong here...i respect all of them as ppl who r older than me n stuff...but i juz cant take it anymore...why cant u tell me earlier? why cant u cut me some slack? why cant u jz give me some time to breath? im drowning and no one is helping me...instead they're throwing more stuff on me and making me sink even lower...i juz don understand all this...its almost christmas and i dont even haf the time to go buy christmas prez or cards for my frens...my best fren is back n i dont even get to spend time wif her...i juz wish this week cud be over soon...

Lord, u know how i feel n wat im goin through...i jz pray that u will help me to be strong..please give me the patience and understanding...pls let the ppl understand how i feel too...God, i know tat im gonna be ok bcos u're here with me n if u bring me to this, you'll bring me through this...thank You for everything...Amen.

"If it doesn't kill me, it'll just make me stronger..."