How much? How high? How far?

went back last wednesday for Raya holidays..not that i celebrate it bt holiday mah...haha..well, KK was great, had an awesome time jz relaxing, spending time wif my family esp my brother Gabriel who's gettin married soon..Din rili meet up wif alot of ppl this time round, jz needed time off i guess, had lotsa time to do things that i wanna do like morning/evening swims, downloading stuff (once a pirate, always a pirate), cooking n baking (yes i knw hw to) n havin time to think bout some stuff, talk to God and let Him speak to me..I had a wonderful time with myself..i knw it sounds sad but its true, i did...haha..

So on Sunday, went to church (din backslide, ok?) Skyline was still the same, familiar faces, songs, walk around also can suddenly kena whack by ppl, aunties and uncles asking the obvious question "Eh? ur back?!" haha, i knw they care...And seeing the youths all grown up now, some grew so much taller, some the stomach rounder (u knw who u r..=P), some lamer than ever(yes, you!) but overall they've grown, and it's so cool to see them rise up n take up what we old-er ppl left behind..*wipe tears* "our lil kids grow up dy..." *sniff* =D anyways, enuf bout wat i did, wanted to post about smth else actually..here goes..

How much? how high? how far? These are a few questions that im challenged to ask God..It's nt easy being a follower..Let's say ur in a gang, ur big boss ask u to go kill sum1, will u say "serious ah? nola, dont wan, so dangerous.." NO right? If u wanna be in their gang u've gotta do what he asks u to do otherwise he'll kill u 1st..There is no compromise, no bargaining involved..So, hw come when we're following the biggest and strongest Dai-goh EVER, we alwez give excuses, bargain, delay, postpone..? Sometimes we ourselves tell Him that we'll do it then when He say "Go." we pretend we never hear la, chicken out la..etc. (refer to post "What Do You Mean?")

What does it really mean to be a christian? i've often asked myself..wud my life be easier if i wasn't one, wud i be able to do more things, will i haf more time to study n become the smartest person in the world (HAHA) or haf more time to spend wif my frens doin what's "fun"? recently i had a chance to jz reflect on my life, think about everything that i've gone thru, and i finally haf my answers..Question 1,NO. why not? My life wud haf been a mess if i din knw God and what He has planned for me, i wud haf jz did watever i thot was right (even thou they're not) and who knws what i've become,whr i am, i mite even be dead =S..It's thru all these years of trials n testings that i've come to know how great n awesome the Big Guy is and how much He loves me despite of all the stupid things i've done..sometimes i cant even forgive myself but He did..because His love conquers all..Question 2, yes but why wud i want tat? there's definitely alot of things i can do but are they beneficial? so sadistic meh wanna hurt myself? no thanks! Question 3, No! I would haf more time in a way but i wud use the extra time i haf to do nonsensical things like hang out n talk crap wif my frens, go on9 n watch youtube all day, write stupid songs about hw my life sux cos i haf nth to do...so i'll still not haf time...N i wudn't haf learned discipline, how to manage my time well, do well in studies as well as serve in church..it wud be quite important to learn time management b4 entering the workin world..what better way to train ourselves?

so yeah, after all those evaluation n stuff, my conclusion is...being a Christian is awesome!!! Who cares what the world says about us? "Square, boring, crazy.." We'll jz see what they can say when Jesus comes again n they get left behind while we all go to heaven n enjoy our mansions filled with taylor guitars, durians, char-siew (oh, tat's my mansion =P) hahaha...but still, we've gotta try n get more ppl to realise what we realise, see what we see, believe in what we believe in...If it's SO good kan, why arent we promoting it? why arent we excited about it? come on ppl, we've got a world to save! who can save the world by jz keeping quiet and living life jz like everyone else? we've got to live extraordinary lives and be proud in what we believe in! Be brave enough to ask God how much when He says give, how high when He says jump, and how far when He says Go...Let's save the world! Yatta!! =)