F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

In our lives, we meet many people...since the day we're born, we meet the doctor who delivered us, the nurse who cleaned us..etc. but of cos la at tat time we still blur so dont knw anythin yet..all of us have friends..best friends, good friends, bad friends..still friends...but wat do they mean to us? haf we taken our frens for granted? are we being the kind of friend that they wan us to be? is thr anythin we can do better?

I truly cant say tat im an expert in this area..mainly bcos my frens change alot...not tat they dont wanna be my frens anymore but bcos i move too much...so many frens i dont keep in touch wif anymore, some changed, some drifted apart..Can we ever live without friends? every1 wans to belong to a group, a bunch of ppl whr they feel safe, wanted, loved...some join societies, some join forums or chatrooms, others go into relationships...the latter being the majority...recently i found out tat so many of my frens are in relationships again, not tat i dont wan them to be in one but i jz thot we're still young, there are so many things we havent experienced, many ppl we havent met...y tie urself down to jz one person after another, u knw? well, it's their lives to live and here i jz wanna let u all (if u think im talkin about u) knw tat im here for u if u need anythin, i'll still listen to u if u wanna vent ur anger on hw he ffk u during dinner or how she didn't call u...etc..haha...=)

and also, wud like to take this chance to thank some ppl, just for being who u r, being a part of my life, being my friends...in no particular order ok? =) here we go...

You, who made me feel welcomed here, for being my 1st friend in KL
You, who helped me in my time of depression, for the prayers and encouragements
You, who talk to me about everything and anything every time u stay over
You, who listen to me when im down, when im in trouble, for being the 1st person i'll turn to
You, who talk me out of my emo-ness, bombard me with words of wisdom and cheer me up
You, who's so far away now, i really miss you, the times we spent back in KK, the laughters, tears, practically everything..
You, who fetch and send me home when i dont haf transport
You, who bring me to places i've nvr been b4
You, who didn't rili work out, im sorry...really
You, my little bro who gives me big hugs everytime i go back
You, who scare me sometimes but i knw u care...alot
You, my dai goh who has impacted my life so so much...
You, who make me laugh so hard everyday...
You, who talk about heroes so enthusiastically with me every time
You, my dai jeh, who always remember
You, who call me up every once in awhile just to "see hw ur doin"
You, who ask me out everytime i go back KK, even if i told u im busy
You, who sms me the nite b4 my exams to wish me luck
You, who purposely bang into me everytime in church
You, who helped me when i lost smth the other day, and brought me all the way to far far away to settle my things

and last but not least

YOU, who never ever leave me, always loving me and giving me the best there is...who watch over me every single day of my life, you're the best friend i ever had, the longest one too, although i disappoint u alot, but i knw u'll never say u dont wanna fren me, u'll never leave me alone, u're always there when i need u and i just want u to know tat i love u so so much..thanks for being everything to me...

thanks everyone for being a great friend, i wud never ever regret havin all of u as friends..and i thank God for placing u awesome ppl in my life..i believe tat in everything, He has his plans and purpose...so u all are a part of my life for a reason...and i wud rili like to thank u all for teaching me hw to be a fren, lotsa love, Eunice.

How much? How high? How far?

went back last wednesday for Raya holidays..not that i celebrate it bt holiday mah...haha..well, KK was great, had an awesome time jz relaxing, spending time wif my family esp my brother Gabriel who's gettin married soon..Din rili meet up wif alot of ppl this time round, jz needed time off i guess, had lotsa time to do things that i wanna do like morning/evening swims, downloading stuff (once a pirate, always a pirate), cooking n baking (yes i knw hw to) n havin time to think bout some stuff, talk to God and let Him speak to me..I had a wonderful time with myself..i knw it sounds sad but its true, i did...haha..

So on Sunday, went to church (din backslide, ok?) Skyline was still the same, familiar faces, songs, walk around also can suddenly kena whack by ppl, aunties and uncles asking the obvious question "Eh? ur back?!" haha, i knw they care...And seeing the youths all grown up now, some grew so much taller, some the stomach rounder (u knw who u r..=P), some lamer than ever(yes, you!) but overall they've grown, and it's so cool to see them rise up n take up what we old-er ppl left behind..*wipe tears* "our lil kids grow up dy..." *sniff* =D anyways, enuf bout wat i did, wanted to post about smth else actually..here goes..

How much? how high? how far? These are a few questions that im challenged to ask God..It's nt easy being a follower..Let's say ur in a gang, ur big boss ask u to go kill sum1, will u say "serious ah? nola, dont wan, so dangerous.." NO right? If u wanna be in their gang u've gotta do what he asks u to do otherwise he'll kill u 1st..There is no compromise, no bargaining involved..So, hw come when we're following the biggest and strongest Dai-goh EVER, we alwez give excuses, bargain, delay, postpone..? Sometimes we ourselves tell Him that we'll do it then when He say "Go." we pretend we never hear la, chicken out la..etc. (refer to post "What Do You Mean?")

What does it really mean to be a christian? i've often asked myself..wud my life be easier if i wasn't one, wud i be able to do more things, will i haf more time to study n become the smartest person in the world (HAHA) or haf more time to spend wif my frens doin what's "fun"? recently i had a chance to jz reflect on my life, think about everything that i've gone thru, and i finally haf my answers..Question 1,NO. why not? My life wud haf been a mess if i din knw God and what He has planned for me, i wud haf jz did watever i thot was right (even thou they're not) and who knws what i've become,whr i am, i mite even be dead =S..It's thru all these years of trials n testings that i've come to know how great n awesome the Big Guy is and how much He loves me despite of all the stupid things i've done..sometimes i cant even forgive myself but He did..because His love conquers all..Question 2, yes but why wud i want tat? there's definitely alot of things i can do but are they beneficial? so sadistic meh wanna hurt myself? no thanks! Question 3, No! I would haf more time in a way but i wud use the extra time i haf to do nonsensical things like hang out n talk crap wif my frens, go on9 n watch youtube all day, write stupid songs about hw my life sux cos i haf nth to do...so i'll still not haf time...N i wudn't haf learned discipline, how to manage my time well, do well in studies as well as serve in church..it wud be quite important to learn time management b4 entering the workin world..what better way to train ourselves?

so yeah, after all those evaluation n stuff, my conclusion is...being a Christian is awesome!!! Who cares what the world says about us? "Square, boring, crazy.." We'll jz see what they can say when Jesus comes again n they get left behind while we all go to heaven n enjoy our mansions filled with taylor guitars, durians, char-siew (oh, tat's my mansion =P) hahaha...but still, we've gotta try n get more ppl to realise what we realise, see what we see, believe in what we believe in...If it's SO good kan, why arent we promoting it? why arent we excited about it? come on ppl, we've got a world to save! who can save the world by jz keeping quiet and living life jz like everyone else? we've got to live extraordinary lives and be proud in what we believe in! Be brave enough to ask God how much when He says give, how high when He says jump, and how far when He says Go...Let's save the world! Yatta!! =)

So...What's Up?

Last week was one of the most challenging week i had since i came to KL...Trials was on, papers were crazy early...i had to wake up at like 5 smth in the morning to sit for 7am papers...masuk the hall also stone for like 10 mins b4 my brain can slowly start to think...got sick on the last day of exam which was the day i was suppose to fly into kuching...was so so tired...when i was on the bus to the airport, i almost didn't make it out...i slept then when the bus reach, i cudn't wake up...good thing this rili nice couple came and woke me up...otherwise i wud haf missed the plane...haha...then in the plane, dont dare to sleep dy...i bought a book called "The five people you meet in heaven"...a very good book, rili emo and touching...very nice...haha

Kuching was good, ate ALOT...met up wif a few of my cousins whom i've never seen for a long time dy and their kids whom i've never seen since, ever...my family is rili big btw so we haf alot of cousins and aunties and uncles...and we haf to remember all of their names n stuff cos haf to call one by one...anyways...

My life next year is not how i imagined it to be anymore...i am put into a really awesome, exciting, challenging position...some of u may knw wat it is...if nt then ask me la..dont wanna announce and stuff...hahaha...well, for all the things i've prayed for, it is all clear now...im rili happy about it all, how God spoke to me and my parents, the timing was jz so good and everything was put into place...I'm rili looking forward to next yr...it's gonna be great!! can't wait...but for now, gotta work hard for my finals which is coming REAL soon...cant blif SAM's gonna be over soon...feels like it was jz ystrdy tat i got here...oh well, time flies when u're havin fun mah ya? haha...

Father Lord, I thank You SO much for everything You've given to me, all the things You've told me, I believe that there's so much more to my life..Please take me deeper, one level higher, push me to my limits, stretch me, mold me into what You want me to be...I want to mean it when I say I'll do it, I want to see all the things You have prepared for me come to past...Hold my hand and walk with me, let me see what You see...Thank You Lord, Amen.