Contrast...

hey...i really dunno how i feel rite now...yesterday...my hse was full of ppl...grandparents, parents n my eldest brother...n today...they're all not here...grandparents went to unc's hse..parents went to retreat...brother went back home...this sudden feel of loneliness is jz so overwhelming...jz makes me think...nxt yr whn everyone leaves...it's gonna be like tat...jz tat it wud be quite permanent...

it's true wat Peyton said in One Tree Hill...everyone always leave...i SO understand how she feels...im not being negative n emo or anything...im jz feeling really lonely suddenly n there's no one for me to talk to or laugh with...no one even for me to look at or smile at...u knw...sigh~

anywayz...not gonna dwell on this any longer...feeling very sad already...don wanna make myself cry or anything...gonna feel stupid about myself if i do...okla...i go watch tv or sumtin...chiaos~

Watching your back as you walk away,
Holding back the tears..
Who knows the pain i feel inside?
Who understands,
What im goin through?
Most of all,
When will I ever see you again..?
I really miss you....

Rollercoaster Ride

Life is like a rollercoaster ride,
One minute you're up,
Another minute you're down.
The ups and downs never stop,
Until the rollercoaster stops.

Do you wonder why life is like tat?
Why go up and down when you can jz be stagnant?
Why do we haf to go through it?
When we know the higher we go,
The faster and lower when we go down?

I guess it's just made to be like that?
I think that's how it's supposed to be?
I'm still wondering...still thinking about it...
Someone enlighten me...tell me wat u think about it...

Eventful...

hmmm...let me see...wat has been happening?? too much la...hahhaa...ok...on thursday...in the morning went to church to clean up the media room...nvr thot it wud take tat long man...hahah...after tat while on the way home...reb's car broke down...yeah...it was like 4 sumtin already n i had to meet up with my frens for a movie at 6...was so rush...bt i made it...harry potter... i thot it sucked cos i nvr read the book...bt overall was ok la..i din fall asleep...hahah...

friday...my bro came back! yes...gabriel came back...hahahah....and then at nite...had our CG potbless gathering thingy at Kim's place..invited Ivan, Ian and Calvin...i think they had fun...hahah...watched a movie then went up to the roof...haih...its a really nice place...i love it there...jz to chill n hang out...or even relax ur mind or sumtin..yeah...my fav place...

saturday..went to bukit harapan...was fun la..seeing all the kids bt sumhow its startin to get a bit sienz already like everytime we go there also do the same things only...mayb next time we haf to plan sumtin other than colouring n sing songs...hahaha...then had youth at nite...was fun...had a great time actually...hahaha....

sunday...which is today...went to church...after tat had lunch at five sails...then went home to grab clothes...then head over to kim's place to watch chicken little...was my 2nd time...fell asleep...hahaha...then after tat had dinner there n hang out for a while then came home...was an ok day...tiring la but OK...hahaha...

guess tats all for now...jz wanna update...nuttin much to say already also...hahaha...

Tag-a-thon

since i've been tagged...here goes...

7 things that scare me :
-cockroaches
-rats
-butterflies
-not being able to see & move
-losing my loved ones
-talking to pastor...hahaha...
-horror movie

7 random facts about me
-i don't like drinking water..explains the fact tat i get ulcer so often tat im used to the pain...haha
-i'm very shy...seriously...i don't dare to exchange stuff whn the person give me the wrong thing..haha..i oso dunno y..
-i can watch movies alone..
-i like adventurous stuff..
-i can sleep alot...as in ALOT...hahaha...
-i dont dare to snatch things from other ppl...i like to let ppl...
-i like to think alot...mayb sumtimes too much..

7 things i hope to do before i die:
-Live..to the fullest..
-bring more ppl to Christ
-bungee jump or white river rafting *hint* hahaha
-get married & have kids
-get a taylor
-visit the 7 wonders of the world...
-John Mayer concert!!!

7 things i can do:
-play guitar...
-swim
-cycle
-roll my tongue
-make fish noise..haha
-make ppl laugh..whn i dont think its funny
-sunburn myself n not care...hahaha...

7 people who should fill this out:
-whoever is bored..
-duNo!
-duno?
-duno..
-dunO
-Duno
-dUno

Blur Week...

hey all....the past week has been a blur and crazy week....after PS...basically nuttin happen lo...jz keep resting...in this sense it means stay at home n rot...hahaha...oh yea...we went swimming at nite tat day...me alex and ben...funny la...we went there at around 8:30...ben's mom made cheesecake so we had some b4 we went swimming...was around 8:50 when we jumped into the pool...was freezing cold man...we all cudn't talk cos we were shivering...after 10 mins then we ok...but still very cold...hahaha...crazy kan?? after tat waited for kim then we went for supper at anjung...was a fun nite la...laugh like crazy...and got to hang out wif good frens n jz talk...was very fun...hehehe...

last saturday had youth...CG nite..but wif combined big worship...then during CG time was sharing...talked about wat or how PS touched us...was good time sharing...some tears..some laughs..and total fun...hahaha...gonna haf a party this coming friday for our cell...cant wait cos im rotting at home already...

on sunday...went to church...after tat went for lunch with a whole bunch of them in CP..McD..haha...then walked around for a while...bought yoyo (see fran...got yoyo oh...hahaha...u dont haf leh...?? hehehehe....) and went over to john's place to hang out...played risk...then dinner at ah soon....after tat go home...hahaha...

tats all for now...been at home the whole day today...finish watching one of the series tat i borrowed frm my fren...finally...sigh~ ok la...till next time...

Pictures!!!!

The place was super super packed...everywhere u turn got smelly sweaty ppl....hahahhaha...

Me, Nat and Kim with Henry and Joth the keyboardist....nat's happy cos henry's shorter than him...hahaha....
Me and Mark Peric...the bassist....man he is so chun!! during the worship workshop...phew! love him man....hahahhaa....

Me and Glenn....most ppl wudn't know who he is cos he's not a band member...but he's my fren...hahaha...so yeah...this is him....why like so fake wan my smile...hahaha....

Me and Reggie...guess wat he said to me?
"I'm the biggest blackest blob u've seen..." hahahhahaha....
Ivan, Me, Calvin....SS only la...after the concert....hahahah....
Group photo...dunno who's the purple shirt girl thou...hahahhaa....


Mor pictures next time la...lazy already...take so long time to upload oh...hahahha...I MISS PS!!!!

Planet Shakers ROCK!!!!

Hey all...Was at PS for the past few days...6th-8th...stayed in Pan Pac with nad, kim and bernice...was SO fun....i miss PS so much now...i mean like...yeah...really really miss it...it was totally awesome man...invited a few of my frens....had very positive response from them...i was so touched and happy for them...its my 1st time actually bringing ppl to church or anything like tat...whn i saw my frens raising their hands, praising God, jumping...tears jz flowed...

God was SO totally there during PS....His prescence was jz so real and everyone from the front to the back were raising their hands...jumping...the scene was so cool...!! imagine every single one of the people singing praises...worshipping God...they even stopped playing music and everyone was jz singing the song...man....was so so so good....

last morning was ps sam evans...so powerful man...couldn't stop crying...and the 2nd session was suppose to be split session but they cancelled it to haf an impartation thingy...so all leaders were called on stage and prayed for then after tat the leaders go pray for other ppl...it was my 1st time i prayed for ppl and they fell in the power of the Holy Spirit...was a very good experience...God was so powerful...one of my frens (Calvin) told me he cried and he fell too...i was like so happy...hahaha...and the other fren (Ivan) told me he din fall but he was shaking...

now i wud really wanna thank one person...NAT!! thank you SO much for being with my frens and looking after them...u haf no idea how much it means to me as i was so busy being a crew and stuff....jz really really wanna thank u man...i believe they feel comfortable with you and u haf also made an impact in their lives...rock on man....

the last nite...had 3000++ ppl in the hall...reggie dabbs was awesome...he was so funny...me and alex were laughing our heads off like crazy person...but his testimony was so sad...made me cry...and after everything finished...autograph session...got my CD signed, broken drumsticks signed by Mike Webber, crew shirt signed...hahaha...happy...

anywayz...i experienced God once again...im renewed...im refreshed...God is jz so real to me...i cant believe tat i haf let all the things in the world blind me from the truth...the ONE...im jz so glad tat He hasn't given up on me...really grateful...really really thankful...

ok la...this was a long post ey? ahhahaha....nvm la...got lotsa things to say bah...very tired oh me...din haf enuf sleep during PS...and today had to go class trip...woke up early again...so now im very very very tired...will post pictures another time....see yaz~

Busy busy busy

hey all! PS is this sunday...so as u knw...BUSY!!! hahaha...yesterday spent the whole day in church video shooting...man was it tiring or wat? from morning till nite video shoot...almost went crazy...my hands were so tired cos had to carry so much stuff...take the video cam hand held whole day...sigh~

and today...public holiday...for lunch...drove half an hour all the way to beringgis to eat...then drove back...so free hor? ish~ afternoon spent the whole time in front of the comp...then nite went to uncle's hse for dinner...kinda boring la...but it was ok...now im here again..posting...

this sunday gonna check in to sutera...yay!! cant wait...really very excited about PS already...every day also PS in my mind...hahaha...ALWAYS! Always and Forever!!!

anywayz...i gtg la...see ya'll then...bye bye~